神奇妙的帶領
何春生弟兄
英國 卡迪夫祈禱所
雅各許願說：「神若與我同在，在我所行的路上保佑我，又給我食物吃，衣服穿，使我平平安安地回到我父親的家，我就必以耶和華為我的神。」（創廿八20-21）
我出生在中國一個外教會的家庭。猶記得在2001年下半年，自己剛完成學業，那時正值福建人出國工作的高峰期。那時，在國外一個月的收入就相等於國內普通上班族一年的薪金了。這懸殊的收入差距，致使我也成為這熱潮中的一份子。我清晰記得，自己當時是怎樣向神禱告：「主啊！帶領我出國吧！我若是在國內做生意，難免要撒謊才能謀利，這不是我的個性，祢也必不喜悅。我若在國內打工，何時才能專心事奉祢呢？主啊！帶領我出國吧！給我五年的時間，我便回來事奉你。」當時這樣的禱告，卻似乎未能蒙神垂聽。我辦理出國的簽證手續，就花費了超過五年時間。期間，我想盡各樣辦法，均四處碰壁，其中的心酸和憂慮實在難以言喻。直至2006年8月8日，我終拿到前往比利時的留學簽證。雖然我最終的目的地是英國，但正因如此，才有
機會認識自己的妻子秀美，成就今天的光景。
惟我未能預料，這一次踏出國門後，居於國外已差不多十年了。昔日的禱告已被我埋藏深處，不敢去碰動它，也不敢向神提說。我漸漸發現，自己原來貪愛世界，心底裡曾對神帶著一種愧疚，甚至嘗試逃避，就像一個逃兵。然而，神竟未遺棄一個像我如此頑梗的人，不但在生活中賜福予我，還帶領我進入真教會，領受全備的福音，而得著真正的救恩。小弟謹將其中的經歷與各位弟兄姐妹分享。
我記得第一次踏足真耶穌教會，就是被邀請參加位於英國倫敦Old Street會堂的安息日聚會，其中令我印象最深刻的，就是禱告。當大家一起奉主耶穌聖名跪下禱告，我就被同靈發出的特別聲音震住了。那刻，我真有一種拔足而逃的衝動，但最終還是忍耐下來，直至聚會完結。我想或許是選錯教會，故在禱告中求神赦免。事實上，我在國內時亦曾兩次聽過真耶穌教會的名字。
第一次是聽道時，牧師說有一教派稱為「真耶穌教會」，日後可能還會有「真真耶穌教會」，甚至是「真真真耶穌教會」的出現，故我們要在信仰上站立得穩，不被動搖。第二次是一位與我參加同一外教會聚會的好朋友向我提及。他參加了一次真教會的聚會後，就向我查問是否知道有一間「真耶穌教會」。他並說，他們的禱告很虔誠，都是跪著的；但我們在外教會的禱告，常常都是站著的。可是，他們皆未曾談及真耶穌教會這種特別的禱告方式。這樣，過了一段長時間，我和妻子也不想再參加真教會的聚會了。
直至我們有了第一個孩子，妻子申請社保房屋，獲分配至威爾斯的斯旺西（Swansea）居住，剛好與真教會的一位姊妹同住一個房子。有一天，英總陳天求傳道前來威爾斯巡牧。他亦探訪那位姊妹，而我妻子剛好在家，陳傳道因而邀請她參與聚會。我妻子因早前在倫敦教會曾見過陳傳道，故她亦坐下來聽道。陳傳道當時講論《啟示錄》，有關道理非常吸引她。聚會結束後，傳道請她一起求聖靈，並教她重複唸「哈利路亞」。當她只唸了幾遍「哈利路亞」後，就發現自己的舌頭不受控制，在嘴裡像自然跳動。她能清楚聽見聲音，卻又停不下來。直到禱告結束，她才知道剛領受聖靈，內心非常喜樂，整個人像重生一樣。她立時致電給我，分享這份喜悅，可是我當時卻不以為然。現在回想起來，正因神賜聖靈給我妻子秀美，才融化了我頑梗的心，使
一家人均能走在正路上。
我是在2011年接受真耶穌教會的浸禮。受洗前，聽大家談論，得知魔鬼在信徒受洗前，會進行各樣的攔阻。我記得當時還在心裡想，不是一切都挺順利嗎？但我卻未曾想過，真正的攔阻是在我受洗之後發生。因連續做了兩個怪夢，使我對真教會產生懷疑。同時，因我對真教會的基本信仰不太熟識，以致在信仰上造成很大的震盪。自2011年起至2015年年末，我的信仰可說是不冷不熱。然而，感謝神，祂在這幾年中對我的不離不棄與保守，使我重拾信心跟隨祂，重新學習真理，堅定信仰。惟願神早日賜我聖靈，繼續帶領我人生的信仰旅程。
人生的價值，不在乎我們的能力或成就，乃在於神的恩典是否臨到我們身上。我們一家人能蒙奇妙的救主憐愛，得著恩惠，這是何等寶貴。因著神的恩典，我們才有今日的光景。願一切榮耀歸於天上真神，阿們!
The Miraculous Guidance of God
Bro Chun Sheng He
Cardiff House of Prayer, UK
Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me, and keep me in this way that I am going, and give me bread to eat and clothing to put on, so that I come back to my father’s house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God.” (Gen 28:20-21)
I was born into a non-True Jesus Church Christian family in China. I remember that the latter half of 2001, when I had just finished my schooling, was a peak period for Fujian people to go to work abroad in the West. At the time, a month’s income working abroad was the same as a year’s salary of the average office worker in China. This income disparity attracted me to become part of that trend. I still clearly remember how, at the time, I prayed to God. I said, “O Lord! Guide me so I can go abroad! If I remain in the country to do business, it will be hard for me to avoid lying in order to make a profit. This is not in my nature, nor would You be pleased with it. If I find a local job, when can I afford to wholeheartedly serve You? O Lord! Guide me so I can go abroad! Please give me five years, then I will return to serve You.” It seemed that my prayer at the time was not heard by God. I spent over five years applying for a visa to leave the country. During this period, I tried many different ways but still encountered numerous difficulties. This caused me heartbreak and stress beyond words. On 8 August 2006, I was able to obtain a student visa for Belgium even though my target was to go to the UK. This, however, provided me with an opportunity to meet my future wife Xiu Mei, and brought us to where we are today.
Nevertheless, I did not once think that I would still be living abroad nearly ten years after leaving my homeland. The prayer I had made before had now been cast aside from my mind. Not once had I revisited my promise, nor did I mention it before God. Slowly I discovered that I was more in love with the world, so deep down I felt guilty and tried to avoid God. I was in reality a deserter, and yet the Lord never forsakes such a stubborn person as I. Not only did He bless me in my physical life, but He also guided me to the true church, to receive the complete gospel and experience His salvation. I would like to share with my fellow brothers and sisters what I experienced.
I remember I first set foot in the True Jesus Church when I was invited to attend the Sabbath service held at Old Street, London. What made the deepest impression on me were their prayers. As soon as we knelt to pray in the name of the Lord Jesus, I was shocked by the strange sound they were making. At that instant, I felt like running away, but I chose to wait and stay till the service was over. During that prayer, I asked God for forgiveness, as I thought I had come to an erroneous church. In fact, when I was still in China I had heard the name True Jesus Church twice before. The first time was when a pastor was sermonising. He said that a denomination called “True Jesus Church” had appeared, and he predicted that there would be a “True True Jesus Church”, which would be followed by another one called “True True True Jesus Church”. He told us that we should therefore stand firm in our faith and not waver. The second time was from my good friend who attended the services of the same Christian denomination as me. He once went to attend a service at the True Jesus Church and when he returned he asked if I was aware of a “True Jesus Church”. He also told me that their prayers were very sincere because they would kneel to pray whereas we always stood to pray. However, neither of them had ever mentioned the unusual way of praying at the True Jesus Church. So for a very long time after that, my wife and I did not want to continue attending the true church anymore.
When we had our first child, my wife applied for social housing, which took us to a place called Swansea in Wales. It happened that we shared a house with a True Jesus Church sister. Then one day a UKGA preacher, Thien-Kiew Chin, came for a pastoral visit to Wales. He also visited the church sister, and my wife happened to be home. He asked her to join the service. Since she had seen Pr Chin before at London Church, she remained and listened to the sermon. At the time, Pr Chin was talking about the book of Revelations, and the teachings he spoke of really captivated her. When the sermon ended, he invited her to pray for the Holy Spirit, teaching her to say “Hallelujah” repeatedly. After saying “Hallelujah” a few times, she became aware that she could not control her tongue. It was moving seemingly of its own accord. She could clearly hear the sound but could not stop it. At the end of the prayer, she found out that she had received the Holy Spirit. She was full of joy, and felt like her entire being was renewed. She called me immediately to share the good news, but at the time I did not share her enthusiasm. Come to think of it now, God gave the Holy Spirit to my wife Xiu Mei to soften my stony heart, to enable our whole family to walk together on the right path.
I was baptised into the True Jesus Church in 2011. Before the baptism, I was told that the devil would lay all sorts of obstacles to obstruct the baptism. I remember thinking to myself, “Really? This all went rather smoothly.” Little did I know that the obstacles would come after the baptism. I had two strange dreams which left me in doubt of the true church. Meanwhile, I was not very familiar with the basic beliefs of the church and so this had a serious impact on my faith. The period from 2011 to late 2015 became the lukewarm phase of my faith. However, I thank God that during this time He did not forsake me. Instead He preserved me and allowed me to get up again to follow Him, to regain the enthusiasm to learn the truth, and to stand firm in my faith. May the Lord grant me the Holy Spirit soon and guide me throughout my journey of faith.
The value of one’s life is not measured through one’s own ability and achievements but through the grace of God upon us. How precious is the amazing Saviour’s love and mercy which has come upon me and my family! By the grace of God, we are at where we are today. May all glory and praise be unto our God in heaven. Amen!
